You ever take a picture with someone,
Only to cut them out later on.
Cause they cut themselves out of your life.
But you still look at that same picture and think,
“I looked great?
It happens to us all
Or has happened
Or is happening
You pick your tense.
And is the old you
Just a memory of yourself
And the infamous pair you used to be
You tend to forget how alive you are, that there’s this thing beating in your chest, but when it all comes back to you, the thought of it I mean. It hits you like a train, everything is vibrant again, at least for the moment, that moment your reminded that this only happens once, life. Life only happens once.
Where’s the forest when you need her?
The distractions from the dangers you put yourself in. I’m a professional at self destruction, and some how, some way she speechlessly puts me back together. Distracts me from the dreams and the nightmares, she’s all I truly want, but all I feel I honestly will never have.
You’re far away
But it’s been like this for years
The idea that it could be wrong
I can’t seem to help it though
I still think of you so much
I still wish the best
I still wish I was the best
But I’m not
And nothing changes that we’re both so far away
So far away.
It all begins at hello.
See, it can be as simple as greeting each other, just a spark to ignite the fire. It was that spark a few years ago, standing in that youth building after she told me her name.
That’s who she was, that’s who she is.
Simply put, if you’ve read through my blog.
Dani is the forest.
And oh, how I love to get lost in the forest.
How dense and alive she is. How she is beautiful in her silence and singularity. Nothing ever needs to be added, or taken away.
Everything as is will do just fine.
Walk with me.
See, she’s like alcohol to a man who just beat alcoholism, one sip and you can’t stop, you don’t want to, you’d give everything for it all, all in one shot. When we talk it’s like I just want to keep going, beyond human capabilities, it’s beautiful, and difficult all at the same time.
Got really sick today.
Didn’t think I was gonna make it, I was delirious, mumbled in the countless hours of sleep, burned up with a fever accompanied with a pulsing headache. It was absolutely painful, but my brother took care of me, brought me water, medicine, and got a ice bath ready for me, I couldn’t have done it by myself, so greatful he was there.